hey, what's happening? well guys... the time has come for me to move on...yes yes i know. i've been blog hopping lately and my xanga pretty much took over me. i've had some really good times on here though. ::cues the music ((my first song by jay-z)) shout out to: Lonnell, Dessa, Nikki, Emani and somebody else who is slipping my mind i'm sorry!!!! khristian aka love to kick my leg up remember that time you ain't have no mua-phuckin seat on ya bicycle...an, an, and dog peed on homie leg? LMAO okay okay maybe that stuff happened to Jay-Z but it went with the song. michael aka omarion jr. 'member that time we went to panda express and you got an attitude cuz the line was too long, lmao. that's true. love ya'll! it's ya girl!

what it is? how's it going down? all variations of my favorite phrase, what's up? so..i'm chillen literally in the computer lab. i haven't had a real entry in what it feels like is ages. and it ain't gonna be tonight. i've been chillen at Xanga, i know i know...but i made a really cute site so i've been catering to it. i feel loved over tho. i went super walmart today did a little grocery shoppen with the girl Chantal. HEY KHRISTIAN, LOVE YA POPPIES!<--HAHA THAT SAYS POPPIES...NOO! Poopies! yay! i'm bored i need to hit the bed. holla!

Hey guess what? I watched the news the other night and they had this story on the whole free ipods phenomonon and it's actually true. so i figure...let's get on this and lets see if we can get one! they have ipods and ipod mini's in all color they even have the new photo ipod so..

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come on ya'll do me this favor!

Man, i'm falling off. it's been such a long time since i've written.

Things at work haven't been progressing. My boss big Tammy got mad at me so I think I'm fired. But I'm not sure.I say mannn. I listened to the new Destiny's Child CD. it's aight. i'm not that big of a fan anyways. Let's see what else? I haven't seen Khalif at all. Not since that day I told him it's a free computer in the lab, lol. I've been avoiding the cafeteria. Mainly because I have no one in there to talk to. Me, Cherry and Shira aren't as tight as we used to be. Don't get me wrong we're still cool but i don't kick it with them anymore. I've been hanging with Chantal a whole lot lately. I prefer hanging with Chantal we always have so much fun together. It also doesn't make it any better that Brandon doesn't talk to me anymore. He was told by an anonymous person that i was spreading rumours that he was gay. that's not the case i briefly stated that people in nashville thinks he's gay. i really don't care. i do think he's gay but i don't think of him as any less of a person. his actions the way he handles things all remind me of a gay man and thus he proves that he's gay. even if not gay he is so feminine he might as well be gay. no woman will ever fall in love with a man so effeminate. if so, she might be in denial that she is gay too.

Well anyway's i will be back in chicago the day after tomorrow. yes it is thanksgiving time ladies and gentlemen! holler! lol.  

I don't know what else to update on. Life has been pretty good I have a solid foundation of friends. I have Virginia (Gin), Becki (from build-a-bear), Michael and Khris of course luh ya'll!, Chantal, The Meish, and ... I'm sure I'm forgetting somebody. I need to call Becki tomorrow when I get out of class. I dunno. Well I haven't been up to much. finals are coming up. time to go home is near. i wen out to dinner with chantal and meisha this weekend. brandon wanted to go so bad but umm..yanno he wasn't invited. see the good thing about all the friends i've made is...they have cars. so i can get off campus when i please and yanno i gots to take the meish with me. she makes things memorable. she's been like the only person who has stayed real since we've got down here. so..thats all i'm going to write for now.

holla back twice. speaking of which gotta call my khristian!

thats all folks.

shout out to Mic. allow him to re-introduce himself. his name is mic. m to the i-c.

Hey I know it's been a minute since I updated lets see...whats up in the hood?

hmm...man..this week has been hilarious. all the homecoming "festivities" ended. the week started off slow. on monday i saw khalif or chattanooga as we call him. he had the "sophisticated" look going. the sophisticated look is when he wears a button up and his glasses.. no cap. well... that day at lunch shira invited him to come sit with us. it went a lil something like this:

Shira: hey, theres a seat over here, come sit over here.                                                                          

khalif: nah thats okay. i'm cool i'll just sit over here.

Shira: no, it's okay you can come sit over here.

khalif: nah i'm straight, i'mma sit over here.

shira was inviting him to sit with us mainly because of me. man, this nigga straight denied her. man. i'm so glad that wasn't me. i say, man. i woulda died if that was me. so, shira got offended. she started going off she was like, "damn. man...he coulda sat over here. i mean i know i look busted today but i ain't no lame. man i know i got glasses on and i look a lil crazy but dammit he do too." so meisha and i started giggling. then she proceeded to heat him. "man, at least i can breathe though." he had his button up buttoned all the way up. so she started talking about he probably couldn't breathe. "i can't see how the hell he is swallowing. his throat all closed up. didn't fabolous make a song about...BREATHING!, man lemme sing it, 1 and then the 2, 2 and then the 3, 3 and then the 4 then you gotta...BREATHE!...man his adam's apple is smushed. he turning red and shit. gasp, nigga gasp!" that was so funny but i contained my laughter. then i was like man, shira stop. i mean i'm sure he heard some of that. and i didn't wanna make it seem like i was being mean too i mean i like him. yanno?

so anyways..he seemed a lil down that day, but of course i didn't say anything. at dinner that night we made eye contact and he looked away and walked away with his head down. i'm like damn, he must be having a hard day. but of course i didn't intervene.

tuesday and wednesday are a bit of a blur. i know wednesday night i did shira's hair. tuesday really is a blur now...oh wait. i got trained on the register at work that night. i saw mandy at work which was the first time i had seen her in a really long time. we walked around the mall after work that night. chantal actually drove me to the mall. chantal is really becoming a good friend to me. we are really much alike. i appreciate the fact that i met her. oh yeah and monday was the first night i had sonics. it was kinda fi. i liked it. not my favorite but i liked it.

i worked last night and guess what? i got paid. my paycheck was 192.87 pretty good for my first check. i put it in the bank today, but i put in after two so it will be processed on the next business day which is monday i believe. i went to kroger which is nashville's answer to chicago's jewel. which for those that don't know either it's a grocery store. so i bought some things so i can make breakfast tomorrow morning i just wanna see how this is going to come out. i'm going to cook bacon and pancakes so if it backfires and it turns out nasty, we can go to the cafeteria, lol.

when my money processes  i'm going to go to the beauty supply store and buy some things so my hair can come out looking good. well i don't have anything else to talk about. i'll be writing more perhaps monday. tomorrow i have to work and sunday i have a meeting so we'll see. talk to you later.

homecoming weekend is officially over. did we win the game? i don't even know...

here's a recap:

went to work on friday. i went mad and pissed off because i overslept for my classes. i slept through all of them. man. so i just got myself together for work. virginia came in to say hi but saw i was in a bad mood. so she left me alone. who's virginia? "gin" is my friend whom i met in algebra class. she has a car. she is like a train you can see her smokin from a mile away. me and meish even "partook" in the smoking festivities. thought it'd get my mind off of some things that had been bothering me. did nothing but make my eye's droop a little. not that i need that anymore i already have slanted eyes. ::shrugs:: but needless to say i came back from work happy as usual.

today was the homecoming parade. i woke up at 8:00 and went to the parade with my friend chantal. we stood watching the parade for 3 hours! then we walked up the street and got some fried chicken and fish.. i had the chicken. we were in that line for a while too. it was a little stand set up for the parade. so..then we came back to my room while the battle of the bands was going on and ate. then afterwards chantal had to go meet up with her parents. i met up with meisha and brandon and we went to a stepshow. all the pan-hellinic greeks were there! i felt like i was in heaven. i missed the AKA's step. that made me a lil mad i really wanted to see them step. we came in on the sigma gamma rho's. they did okay. but i really enjoyed phi beta sigma's the best. then after the stepshow, T.U.G.'S B2K replacement, N2U came out and perform and i left. i see there video on midnight love from time to time but i'm not interested. whatever...

so then i went back to my room and chilled with meisha and cherry. i called my mom and talked to her today and decided...i'm going to have a breast reduction surgery so we are scheduling it for may when i get out of school. we're trying to decide when i get my dental surgery i need to get all my wisdom teeth removed. i also need to get these tumors that i have in my breast removed. so i don't think anything else is coming off of my body after that, lol. i'm probably going to be funny looking without my big boobs but perhaps i can lose some of this weight off after those monsters get out my way.

well i'm getting tired i'll update again soon! holla!

for the past two days i've felt crappy. i took off work yesterday. i wasn't feeling it my head was burting blah blah blah... i lost some weight lets here it woo-hoo! i didn't really lose weight i lost inches..thats fine!

so...let's see i saw my grades... straight C's thats fine. lol. thats about the type of work i do. i do C work i deserve C grades. i was freaking out cuz my algebra teacher gave me a bit of a scare.basically if i fail any class i lose my grant lose my grant...i go home. cuz lets face it i won't be able to afford it.

umm, i dunno what is going on with me lately. i have this feeling of rage inside. i'm a rage-a-holic. i can't stop drinking rage-a-hol! that was a little simpsons joke for those who watch the simpsons.

man, i just came back from this buffalo wing contest. khalif was in it! thats why i went. pointless. he gave up. this guy in my english class was in it i asked him what was the problem...needless to say, "them shits was hot." i'll take his word for it. i was still cheering him on but it dammit it was gross this dude threw up in his own mouth. you know how i feel about vomit so i had to go. now i keep feeling vomity.

shira has been hanging with some real sleezeballs lately and this girl whom i really can't stand name randi. ugh. i'm not even about to get on how much i don't like randi but i just don't. this one sleezeball comes up to me and says "you've got some big-ass titties, what u up to?" i just gave him a what the fuck look. needless to say i left the cafeteria. khalif left around the same time i did. i was gonna congratulate him but all his boys were around. how intimidating. lol. i always want to say something to him but... i'm so shy around him. i swear he is like the only guy i feel like this around. he makes me feel so stupid i end up very pissed off at myself for not saying anything. i sound like i'm 12. i'm an adult i need to act like it. so...i'm pissed and irritated. i'm going back home and i'm going to lay down now.

i'll perhaps write more later. it'll be a busy weekend and i have to go to work. later.

Recap

Guess what? I found my wallet! Well luckily, I kept a phone number of my job in there yanno like a business card and I found out I left it in Aeropostale! The best thing about it was the money was still in there. I prayed and prayed every night that it would come back to me unharmed. AND it did. So thank you God for getting that back to me safe in sound.

Speaking of the big man upstairs, I've been pondering my faith a bit. Yes, I have much faith in God but right now, I'm working on my relationship with him. So, I dunno I just wanted to share a few thoughts on that.

Let's see...two days ago..I woke up with a slight sore throat. I thought nothing of it. I just thought that it was from sleeping with the air conditioning on at night. Now fast forward today...full blown pain in my throat. I think I'm gonna have to go to the doctor. Now, I don't really like going. Considering the fact that this is a foreign on campus doctor. Not foreign as in another race,  foreign as in unfamiliar... my co-worker Becki warned me that working with children can wreak havoc on my immune system at first i'll have to build up tolerance so to speak. she was sick when she told me that. and to tell you the truth i hadn't gave it that much thought until i woke up with that achy throat. so i've been gargling with warm salt water and peroxide. I have been drinking a lot tea and eating Vitamin C drops. thats all the meds that i have so hopefully they'll make do.

Whoa buddy last night was the "funnest" night I have had here so far. Lemme tell ya,

last nite was the battle of the residence halls which is a talent show where a dance group from each residence hall competes for a trophy. my friend Shira was participating so i had to show my support! i helped her decorate her costume. it was great. i really enjoyed the show. the boys from watson did they usual freaky stuff then it switched into a "you got served" dance battle they had the music and everything. it was good. but i forgot to say that wilson hall which is my hall started the whole show off. we danced to drop it like it's hot and a whole bunch of other crunk songs and ended it off with a small little step show. the audience roared for us. our hall came together we all wore red and black and cheered.  the other halls were good and the diamond dolls dance group performed. they are our dance group here. we also have this sorority that lisa raye heads here called the diamond dolls elite. and i want to be in it so bad but...i don't have any talent. so..i dunno they are so hated on. but whatever. my friend thea (tay-ah) is in it. i didn't even know til i saw her jacket.

so anyways after that was over it was a small little after party in the gym that was nice. then we were standing in the foyer it was like roughly 4 groups of 10 and i saw old dude i like. okay lemme give you the stats. he's about 6'2. he's light skinned about...maybe...lil'fizz from b2k's color? yeah thats about right. and he always where's a hat like T.I. i saw him dressed up one day and dammit he looked even better. he had on glasses. but he usually never wears them. he has bad taste or hopefully this weird looking girl was gonna help him study cuz i'm not being a hater but this girl looked dusty and he got her number. man... i shoulda went over there and talked to him. Shira and Cherry were trying to push me into him! he was standing right behind me. and they were like turn around! turn around. now i know he heard them. we were in a foyer. foyer's have an echo. i was like no.. no... and i started to blush they said my face turned red. now look to your right do i look like i turn red? now i must have been really embarassed because they had me all bashful. now people know i'm not bashful! but he makes me bashful! he makes me shy! me? nahh.. that ain't me! so.. anyways brandon wouldn't let me live it down he keeps calling me Miss Chatanooga cuz thats where ol' dude is from and his name is Kalif.or khalif...i dunno how to spell it but it's pronounced (kuh-leef). thats all i know. he's a freshman too.

so..i dunno you guys but if it's meant to be i'll strike up some courage and holla....

ooh! why did this fight break out on campus yesterday? after the after party now you know you cannot crunk up all these damn kids and think something isn't about to jump off afterwards. this boy got jumped by like 6 other guys! and got shot. now i was there. i was laughing. that shit looked like it came out of the movies. i didn't flinch or anything. it looked so dramatized, i wanted to clap and say encore. the bullet grazed him in the arm, the dude gets up off of the ground holds his arm walks away and yells back, "ain't no .22 gon phase me i'll still beat ya'll ass." yes..sir a .22 will phase you. matter of factly it will kill you. and no one's ass was beat except for his. and ladies and gentleman i laughed. this was in front of the older boys dorm. now why was i over there? i went to watson (freshie boys dorm) to get a lunchable from brandon cuz i was hungry and wanted to see if khalif was over there. lol. so yeah...thats pretty much what has been happening lately.

tonight is the mr. tsu pageant. and it's an AKA party so i wanna go. so..i know i will have some drama to write in here later. i took off work today cuz i'm not feeling to well. my throat! lol. so..i guess i'll holla at ya'll tomorrow. don't forget tag me and i'll tag you back!

first off let me begin by apologizing for taking so long to write. i've been hella busy.

i did get to go home. it was a break much needed. nothing too significant occured. it was same old same old. my mom went to the boat and won 3000 dollars! that was whats up. she gave me 500. so of course i went shopping. i bought 3 pairs of shoes and new winter coat which was much needed. i also bought a baby phat hat, gloves and scarf set. i also bought a purse and three new shirts and new pair of pants. i came back to school with about 150 dollars left.

after that i started my new job a day after i got back. it is great. i work at the build-a-bear workshop. it is so much fun. i love my managers and co-workers. except for this one girl who seems to only work on saturdays i think she's racist or something she keeps starin at me and i hate being talked at. i dunno. i've worked about 6 days and i make 6.75 so i think my first check is going to be fat.

umm...i lost my wallet at work one day. so i'm like hustling right now. and yes my 100 dollars was in there so..my mom sent me an emergency $60. my check card was in there and my baby phat debit card. my state id was in there but...i had a back up at home. so.. thats really all thats been going on.

ooh i got a crush on this boy at school. i have no clue what his name is! and he doesn't know mine. i ate lunch with him a few times. he's kinda cool. but he is extra fine. i'mma get a picture of him.

well thats all for now. i gotta work today and do some homework so i'll update soon.

hey michael! hey khristian! (feel better pookie!) michael wanted a shoutout so here ya go: mike what up! thanks for the new dipset cd! i'm feelin that "yo, baby, yo!"

hey, it's four more days until i go home! i'm so excited! i can't help myself,lol.

i've been slacking really bad in school. i can't concentrate on anything. don't get me wrong i do study but apparently by my grades not hard enough. i thought i was doing pretty good but in actuality i'm doing terrible. my gpa is going to be awful. the only grade i feel confident in is my english grade and my tests and all my papers i've been getting C's. so i think i'm going to have a C in english. i failed my math test and thats the only grade i have to show for in that class. so i really need to have a talk with my professors and ask them what can i do to get an A or B in those classes because if i get bad grades they are going to take my grant money away and if they do i won't be able to go to school anymore because seriously i can't afford it.

i'm so worried about my grades i don't know what to do. but what i do know is, is i have to study harder. i just can't get involved in any activities. i can't go to chicago club anymore i need to use that time to study. i really need to manage my time because i'm not sleeping well and i'm worrying about getting a job so i just need to manage my time and not stay up all late talking to meisha and shira. so after i get back from fall break it is a whole new leaf.